sunny is money!

So last week it snowed 3 days straight and it was the first time that the snow stuck to the asphalt...but the day before it snowed 3 days straight it was like 12 degrees so it was definitely cold enough. I love the snow but after 3 days you want to see the sun...at least for the kids sake..but they really love the cold/snow. Anyways so yesterday it all dried up and was sunny and warm enough to go to the park. So we went and didn't even have to wear jackets! It was great and the kids got a lot of energy out. And now its snowing again!
Thank goodness for family..really. I have just been having a mental breakdown about money + the holidays. We are too broke to buy Christmas presents and that's reality. I got a couple stocking stuffers for the kids but I feel pathetic. There was this kitchen at Walmart for only 45 dollars and I really wanted that to be a big Santa gift for the kids...of course the one I really wanted was 300 dollars but not until we have a house where they can have a room only for toys. Anyways so of course my wonderful BABY sister who's already spent like 150 dollars or more on the kids and Willie and I, bought the kitchen and sent it so that it could be a present for them from us. And then she also sent us a fully lighted Christmas tree..talk about feeling pretty awful as her big sister :[ I am young...and this is just a tough time...we will get out of all this and I will be the one taking care of her one day when she has kids and hard times.
I know I'm blessed don't ever get me wrong on that..I'm always being optimistic...blowing the bad things and hard times off because they don't touch all the good in my life but sometimes it just gets hard and its okay to let that show occassionally. I am married to a prince who makes me feel beautiful in my ugliest of hours and I can't ask for more. Plus missing my best friend when she's pregnant with her first is really getting to me too. But I just have to save and make it my priority to be there. Thinking I won't be the one to throw her baby shower...makes me cringe inside but being a realist theres no way I can fly there for a couple days to do that and then go back the next month when she delivers...unless a money miracle happens! We'll see. It always works out....Bella's nap is lasting a little longer but I'm sure thats due to the snow falling peacefully and it being dark outside at 4 pm.